korean dramas is so much more simple

boring, boring...sangke masi di Luar Negri. biasanya dia nemenin dinner, ngobrol, etc. dia rada gila, g juga bisa ngimbangin kegilaan dia. now, so much missing him. ok, this blog not just bout him. this bout me. not exactly. am i too centil rite now? ok, forget it. just read...

i keep remind me not to blush when thinking bout this topic. before i start, i'm little confuse here, how to upload a pic? tadi dah coba, but makin coba makin bingung. and the text, we can only use the black colour? how to change the color? i knew, with source code, bisa change colour. but sejak tamat setaon yang lalu, semua source code yang g hapal, uda dibalikkin ke dosennya semua---hehe, lupa.

saking santainya hari ini, i re-watched Marley&Me and Twilight for the 2nd time. not taking any nap, just watching movies, writting, and listening to my MP3 yang itu itu saja. now, u'll think i'm the most bored person in this world. hakahak. but no, this is me enjoying time.

ok, actually i just joinning this space for 2 days. and i think i writting in a very thin line coz, i'm not sure, (pinjam istilah the seniors)----g "buka kios yang benar or not" di klewer. hehe... takut ga laris? may be... hahahahaha...

ehm.

here it is.

girls. ladies. women. mommies. daughters. my gank (hahahaha)

they wait, waiting or waited.

they wish, wishing or wished.

i'm one of them. ladiy, woman, daughter. my gank's member.

(this is not a poem, FYI)

marriage. wedding. POC-Prince Of Charming. bride. this words all related.

yeah. honestly, i'm really wait for that day. kalo dipikir pikir, entah kapan. dan rasanya tak akan datang deh hari itu. no offense, dear. its just how my silly tought.

Ko hai hai pernah bilang di salah satu commentnya, menikah tuh bukan soal cinta za. whoa, i knew that. but to understand that sentence, needs years, fights, between couple. i think. before or after, just same. understanding is the hardest one. fight to stay to each other when in the harderst condition, people never prepared for that, i think---yeah, hard one. 

i have sisters, brother. they have married. me is the last one. seeing and learning from them, trust me, all korean dramas is so much more simple.

but, walopun us, ladies, women, daughter, knew it never easy, we still waiting for that moment.

the rings, moment to pick the dress. the little ballerina, little tuxedo. flowers. candles. church. blessing. all of it.

walking into the isle, people smile at u, amaze how beautiful u re. the moment u will not forget forever, after that u'll tell your daughter, u pass it, so she can lives and belive this world still have a true love. (ok, g terlalu dramatic, terbw perasaan dan tdk masuk akal, hahaha...)

let me keep going...

my mum, my sister in law, or my sisters, never told me about how beautiful their marriage, how "incredible" that-finally-they-found-their-soulmate". mereka selalu menasehati, if i dun wanna be married, that would be just fine. just don't. 

i can feel, how desperate they are sumtimes, may be.

is it really difficult? yeah, pasti. but, karena g belum pernah mengalaminya, g sering mendoakan hal ini. dan sori, i can write how exactly marriage is. but, i can write how i wish and wait for that moment. and i keep praying.

if sangke baca blog ini, pasti dia akan menyangka g ngebet abis minta dilamar. hakahakhakak... 

not just me. semua gank cew, biasanya akan heboh talking bout this topic. ada yang bilang pengen nikah sambil tamasya, ada yang terikat ama adat keluarga sehingga semua harus pada diundang, ada yang pengen meritnya sakral, etc, etc.

nah kalo g? g ini tipe yang penurut, ga banyak permintaan. tapi walo g ngakunya ga banyak permintaan, actually,  g uda maksa dia berjanji, if mao merit ama g, harus kasi g komputer, internet, dvd, tv ama seekor retriver, yang golden. maka, g bisa melewati hari hari g dengan sangat suka cita. i'm not sure, g bisa benar benar suka cita or not. haha. cuma dengan ada komputer, internet dan golden retriver, maka g akan sudah akan sibuk sendiri. biasanya sibuk sendiri-keuntungannya adalah jauh dari pikiran yang tidak tidak, karena ga ada waktu mikir. sekali ada waktu, pasti uda tau mo ngapain. use it well.

ok, back to the topic.

2 people joining needs time. scare? not really. kadang, saat mengasihi seseorang, yang terpikir adalah bagaimana memberi, melakukan ini or itu untuknya, support him. just leave the rest to God. do my best, God 'll do the rest---Quote, ini motto temen bae g.

oh ya, marry itu penting lho mikirin duit. duit u honeymoon, u beli rumah, beli Air Con, etc. tapi kebanyakan mikir itu, ga akan merit deh. hahaha. duit itu sering bikin orang batal untuk sukses. ini pendapat g, no offense. hahahaha...

dulu papa g itu rada playboy. hehehe. dia tuh sering ngaku, pacarnya dimana mana. then he told me ONE BY ONE. oh mannn, macem g tertarik ama lovestory lifenya dia aza... tapi demi uang jajan dan anteran aman nan ramah yang gak akan ada duanya, g senyam senyum aza dengerin ocehan how playboy was he. naaahhhhh, segitu playboynya dia, akhirnya merit ma mum g yang dominan abesssssss... akhirnya dia yang abes, haha. trus apalagi ada putri, wuahhh, dia yang ketakutan pas ada cowo mo pdkt anaknya. karena dia jadi wori semua cowo sama playboynya. hahahaha...

ok, my point here. dad saat married to mum, segalanya berubah lho. dia yang berandalan abis, jadi santun. jadi sangat bertanggung jawab. committed to family, he fight until he died, for family. for mum, bro, and me. dad marriednya telat, bahkan sepuluh tahun lebih tua dari my mum. itu meninggalkan penyesalan di hati papa dan mum. mereka seharusnya bertemu dan menikah lebih awal, itu pikiran mereka. coz melihat g yang masi sangat belum mapan, dad uda pensiun, mum juga cuma ibu rumah tangga. agak menyakitkan hati papa, saat seminggu dari kelulusan SMU, g uda mulai kerja Part Time. bukan sedang mengasihani diri sendiri guys, ini just a story of me, hopefully this bring sumthing.

mum said, mereka merasa bersalah karena diusia mereka, g tidak dipersiapkan apa apa. karena keterlambatan mereka, itu pikiran mereka. dan betapa sedihnya mereka, mum tahu dad paling sayang g, tidak punya kesempatan melihat g menikah. hukhuk. 

see?

the moment i try to show how beautiful, hard, meaningful, amazing it is.

Note : haha, dia pasti makin mikir g udah ngebet minta dilamar... jangan Geer...

long white dress, simple pearl tiara, long hand silk gloves, silver stiletto. isn't it perfect?

toast, red wine, flowers, candid, isnt it so much original?

one day, when i'm walking into the isle, i wish they pray for me inside their heart. pray for me and my husband to bulid a family.

to all husbands, wifes, can u guys share the stories of yours?

one thing for sure, i really wish, wish, wish, when the day come, please please no raining. i wish for a bright blue sky. hehehe...

and, yeah... i'm serious bout the Golden retriver. g uda pilih namanya pun, hahahaha...